Right now, the fact that I can make it on my own,
is one of the few things of which I am certain.
But I don't want to have to...
I keep wavering between absolute surrender to the knowledge that nothing I can do will fix this & complete despair that no matter how loving i am, or how hard i try to make it work it will probably still fall apart.
All i can do is hold my head up, keep trying, keep loving & hope that someday, someone decides they want to be around.